Smile....

When things feel too intense, and everything feels disjointed....Smile. Simply Smile and Breath, give yourself permission to move through what ever feelings you are having....Especially when smiling feels impossible.

Nothing Ever Stays the Same...and thats OK.

You're Life is What You Make of It :)

There is nothing without Love...

People are in this world to help one another, and most especially, to help ourselves. Living our best life and being true to ourselves and honest is the most effective way to move forward in life and learn necessary life lessons so that we can grow and love more deeply. Thats what I am doing and I also recognize that many, many others are on the same path...no matter how they choose to live.

I am grateful for having free will and for living this human experience. My heart has been loved and it has loved...some days I love deeper than I ever dreamed possible....those are lovely days and the treasure of my Soul....

Monday 8th 2008

I am finally feeling soooo much better, really I actually feel human again! So Just wanted to post this real quick and let people know that I am walking long distances again and my energy is coming back to where it was before this all began. I can eat food again too...yipppeee

Removing the IUD

Yes...as of 4 pm today I am no longer suffering from the Copper IUD that I had inserted on Monday. Why? This morning I woke up feeling OK, than started to steadily feel like crap, cramps, nausea and light headed...a week in bed is not what I signed up for! I spoke with my family doctor a wonderful lady doctor who said that I should NOT be feeling like this...so I had it taken out, It was painless! My body temp warmed up right away, I was no longer freezing....my headache is so much better...cramping is very slight and my mood is well, pretty great...I am smiling again and feeling more like my normal ( slightly crazy) self :)

So what have I learned from all of this? I have come to realize that my body is going to communicate with me, regardless of what I want or think I need. I honor this communication no matter what! I will find the way that is right for me when it comes to birth control....I will not be in a hurry and will research all my options most carefully from now on. To all you Ladies out there: Take your time and listen to your body...don't hesitate to reverse a procedure that is not working for you because you are far more important than the procedure itself!

Thank You & I hope this helps others who may be facing this challenge in their life :)

Oh Dear

THIS IS WHY I GOT THE IUD

Its been awhile since I posted last and anyone who has ever followed any of my blogs has probably figured out by now that I am not the most consistent blogger, but I do hope that my content makes up for my lack of timely posts :)

As per my goal to be fit by 40, I have taken the opportunity to have a bit of control over my life concerning my personal freedom. I am at an age where I really no longer have the interest of rearing and raising more children. I have such a rich and wonderful life with the 3 children I have that I cannot see the purpose of wearing myself out with more pregnancies etc...So I opted to have a copper IUD inserted on Dec. 1st 2008. I have had a rough couple of days following the procedure, but so far I think my body is responding normally to the foreign object now residing inside of me and I do hope that it gives me the peace of mind that I need to enjoy being intimate with my life partner. This is a big step for any woman to take, and I chose the Copper IUD because I have a very sensitive system and felt hormones pumping through my body would not be right for me. I know the odds of this method and find it acceptable. I wish sometimes it were easier to prevent pregnancy but I realize that humans are just hardwired to pro-create....its what our bodies want to do, despite what our heads or hearts think or feel....but I am calling the shots, not my body and I think that's a good thing!

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Intrauterine_device

Every Woman who is interested, will have to decide what method of birth control is right for her and her body and her lover too. This is a lot to consider, but unless you want babies flying out of you right and left, its a worthwhile endeavor. Take your time and never let anyone pressure you into using a method you are not comfortable with. PS I think its also wonderful if the Man is willing to have a vasectomy...its far less painful and intrusive for the man, than for the woman. But costly and you need to wait 3 months to see if it has taken, so yeah...nothing in life worth having is easy huh?!

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Vasectomy

In the End....it all comes down to doing the best you can with whatcha got! :)

Here is a much more detailed letter that I emailed to a friend about my experiance with the IUD. I hope to help, not scare anyone...

Oh, gotcha! Let me give ya the info then :)

I posted about my IUD here http://goalsby40.blogspot.com/

There are a couple of links on there you can check out too concerning IUD against other methods...

HERE IS THE DISH ON WHAT HAS BEEN GOING ON SINCE I GOT THAT IUD

Have I been in pain?....hmmm well I am going to tell you what happened to me, I didn't post this information.
Monday about Noon I had it put in at Planned Parenthood. Because we are broke ass crackers :)....it didn't cost me anything but I left them a $15 dollar donation. The doctor said it was about a $1200 procedure. Took no time at all and the procedure although slightly uncomfortable a time or 2, was pretty quick and painless.

I came home and feeling slightly crampy like period cramps...I proceeded with my day as normal just moving more slowly. I ate a normal dinner of venison sausage and veggies with tortillas, than took 4 200 mg of ibuprofen, at 7 pm. around 8:30 I sat down at my computer to check my e-mail, I started to feel crampy and uncomfortable followed with a wave a nausea...then started to fee light headed and seeing little lights and hearing started to leave, I put my head down towards my knees and slowly sat up and walked towards the kitchen to get a drink of water and started to pass out again, walked to the bathroom and yes, almost passed out again, I weakly called for help and my husband and roommate got me out of the bathroom, sat me down in the living room, and it was pretty blurry by then, I actually passed out for a few seconds then came too but was pretty out of it and they put my coat on me and took me to st Marys hosp. they kept me over night cause my blood pressure was pretty low like 72 over 55 - etc... they ran a whole gambit of tests on me cause my chest hurt too like I had been running in the cold...so they wanted to make sure I wasn't having a heart attack or a pulmonary embolism...yeah, the doctor scared me, so I let em shoot me up with nuclear meds to take pic of my heart and turns out I am uber healthy, and although heart disease runs in my family, evidently I am not even close to showing any signs of future heart disease. I scored very high on my stress test and have no blocked arteries etc....thats the only good that came out of all the tests...I am very healthy and my heart is great.

now back to the IUD...I am still very tired and it comes on quickly. I have been in bed practically all day and night since Monday night at the hosp. My cramps are not too bad, and the nausea has pretty much subsided, though it still comes from time to time, usually accompanied by stronger feeling cramps. I felt really good this morning, got up, walked around, swept the living room and then I just got hit with exhaustion and I am now in bed. I have been kinda scared to eat very much because I don't want to tax my system so I have been drinking a lot of liquids and am still drinking green juice which seems to help. I don't feel nearly as crampy when I am not eating much....

I have been feeling like perhaps I was hasty to have the IUD put in, but It seemed cheaper than a $700 vasectomy...now I am thinking hey, let HIM get his stuff fixed, He would be just fine after the procedure...me, I am feeling pretty much helpless, cause when I feel that exhaustion, I really just don't want to move....really, like not even roll over...

OK....if that hasn't scared ya off, I know a woman who got pregnant with the copper IUD....she tells me after I do it of course :)

I do feel that this is a safe and practical method, but the adjustment period sucks balls, and she said that her periods were not the same as before, they were heavier, longer and more painful.....this kinda freaks me out, cause my periods are almost always quick, easy and fairly painless.....

So I am going to see how I feel over this weekend and if by Monday I am not feeling more normal, and able to go about my day doing my normal activities, then I may well opt to have the darn thing removed...oh also the pain and discomfort is worse at night and it makes my teeth feel really weird from time to time, I think its the copper...

This is what I experienced...I do hope that its much better for you if you give it a go....just take it easy, I cant emphasis that enough!

I hope this helps, every woman is going to respond different, but if this doesn't work I think I am going to use the sheets of spermicide...only draw back to that is after you put it in there ya gotta wait 15 min, and if by some strange chance its gets in your mouth...it will make your tongue numb ( as told to me by a reliable source ) :) so any interesting foreplay should be done before the sheets are inserted....

I have probably given you way too much information...but that's kinda how I Roll :)

I am Enjoying Raw Cacao Nibs!

The Benefits are astounding and my heart is feeling really well :) Release the Bliss Chemicals in your brain naturally, and enjoy the benefits of destroying free radicals and other great effects from Raw Chocolate beans, powder and nibs....

Working out

There is a saying you may hear when working out with people who know what they are doing: Pain is just weakness leaving the body. They are right! I had one of the best workouts a couple of days ago with 2 friends who practice jiu-jitsu. I have bruises from the workout, but it didnt hurt at the time of the workout. I didnt feel sore until later, you really work out muscles that dont normally get used much. This is a very good all around body strengthener. I highly recommend this form of workout if you are up for it. My two teen boys are taking classes and really love it.

So what are you waiting for? Get that body moving! :)

Also since doing the Rawfu Challenge( http://raw100.ning.com/ ) its fun and supportive. I have dropped 2 sizes and have been feeling great! Still moving Steadily towards my goal of being fit by 40....

Margo

Persimmon Fruit Leather with Foraged Mint & Rosemary Herbs :)

http://rawfood.meetup.com/469/

Back from Sufi Camp Vacation

Poem by Rumi

I died from minerality and became vegetable;

And From vegetativeness I died and became animal.

I died from animality and became man.

Then why fear disappearance through death?

Next time I shall die

Bringing forth wings and feathers like angels;

After that, soaring higher than angels -

What you cannot imagine,

I shall be that.

Little Girl, Little Curl, Sweet and Rotten..hmmm

You are perhaps familiar with this little nursery rhyme...There once was a little girl, she had a little curl right in the middle of her forehead; when she was good, she was very, very good, and when she was bad she was horrid.

Well thats how I have felt the last 2 months. So, when I ask the Universe to help me I always seem to forget that change is often unpleasant and I am almost always unyielding.....
at first anyways. I do manage to come around but not until I have thoroughly beaten my head against numerous brick walls ( did i mention that I painstakingly designed these brick walls myself?) Ha ha :)

Ah well.....C’est la vie

And I am all the Better for it as I can clearly see now...thanks to langelbleu on twitter for her insights and to my Husband Dietrich who allows truth to spill from his lips and to me for allowing it to heal me despite my moments of despair and confusion...we are all here to hurt or heal one another....I would rather go through the temporary discomfort that Truth brings, then to live a lifetime of lies and illusions about myself...or believe the illusions of others. I make my choice, I do not let others choose for me...free will only hurts till ya get the hang of how it works in the natural world, right?! Not the lies we tell ourselves to fool and sabotage what beauty there could be for our life. I am still learning, fine tuning, taking notes and determined.

So here I am, perhaps like many, just being Glade, Grateful and Feeling Loved by the Universe, the Angels, fellow internet travelers and those I love dearly, and perhaps most importantly Myself...Loving Myself...I love you Margo!
XOXOXO

Sprained Ankle

Sage cheered me up while I was down with my foot up and de-spraining!

Left side= Feminine
Ankle represents mobility and moving forward

Bed Rest, Ice and Elevation has given me a fresh new outlook on life! I would rather not be stuck in bed...Ever! I know that when I just wont make the time to slow down and tend to my inner self, the universe does it for me. Ummm....Thank You Universe! I am always grateful for wake up calls!

Margo

Zombie Walk

I have been putting together a rather unusual event for the Citizens of Jefferson City, MO
It's Called a Zombie Walk and its a group of people, dressed like Zombies who Shuffle and Lurch along an area of a city...Why you ask...Why Not I say :)

Check it:
http://www.zombiewalkmo.blogspot.com

Head Colds and Remedys

My kids have been sick this past week and I too succumbed to a bit of it myself. It came down on me Thursday night like a pile of bricks right into my sinuses and by the next morning I had gone through over half a box of Puffs (with lotion) Kleenex...they are the best and keep ones nose from getting raw. So out came the peppermint oil and the colloidal silver, and of course I went to the Y to Sweat, Friday I sweat 2 in one day and it made a huge difference in how I felt. I have managed to kick it pretty darn quick. I attribute that to raw foods and sweating. Its the little things you do to help yourself that count, Hot tea with lemon is a great start :)

Stay well!

Margo

Sweat Baby Sweat!

Oh yeah, I just got back from the Y and had a wonderful Sweat! My complexion looks Fab, and I feel great. I was finding myself wanting to eat bread again and so back to the Hypnotherapist I went yesterday to nip that in the dough! Hypnosis really works well for me and I have absolutely no desire to eat processed carbs, and it lasts for weeks. I am so determined to be fit that I would probably try almost anything :) So now you know one of my most effective tools to staying strong while eating a high raw diet.

Hehehehehe

It feels like Fall and that means Winter will be here soon...

So I have a Membership to the Y.M.C.A. Its only a couple blocks from where I live and it has a great wet and dry sauna. ( 2 separate saunas) The wet one really cleans out your pores and I stay in there long enough to give my pores a good cleansing sweat, then I go into the dry sauna and finish it off with a deeper sweat.... I come out and my skin is so soft and glowing. If I am even starting to break out I like to spritz my face with colloidal silver. My two teen boys have really liked the benefits of it when they have zit attacks!

Winter will be here before long and when I cannot walk outside because of the weather, I will be at the gym workin on my fitness :) I shall work out every day because it is time that is just for me and as a busy mom, I think I not only have earned the right but deserve it! I am taking care of myself because no ones going to do it for me and I have to live in this body while I am here :)

Margo

I will take a picture of the Capitol steps, I walk up and down them between 10-15 times and let me just say it is rearranging all the junk in ma trunk and thats not a bad thang :)

Change

Well the last 3 months have probably been the most upside down, crazy months of my life in at least 20 years...No biggie, life is full of change from time to time, much of the change going on in my life is what I brought on myself. Ahem the words good intentions comes to mind for many of my heartfelt decisions, and that's OK. I have learned some very valuable lessons about the art of Positive Thinking and Manifesting. It needs more than a wing and a prayer to fly well.

I LOVE Mistakes, it usually means I'm onto something, something in my life that needs to come to the surface, needs my attention before anything can change for the better. You've heard the old saying it usually gets worse before it gets better? Like when you are re-arranging and Organizing your Home!
What I'm saying is that if it weren't for pesky mistakes, I would never feel the urge to do better. I can only tolerate stupidity within myself for so long and then I have a little talk with myself and get started setting things right( sometimes quickly, sometimes slowly) but I eventually heed the signs that things need tweaking.
Everyday I am going to post an activity that I have done to help myself. I welcome comments on what You do that may help with achieving your goals and live your best life :)

Margo

ahhh New Day

Spent my morning working at the Montessori School my 4 yr old Sage goes to. There was a Pizza Party today and ice cream cake was following.( we left before the cake was served).
I have to say that at times I am really discouraged, but then I think, hey if it wasn't a challenge to help the school make a transition to whole healthy foods then it would not be nearly as fun...Well fun aside, a Montessori School stands for something more than what typical day cares are doing. Its a School were the child explores their environment and directs themselves with the joy of learning and exploring, structured only enough so that the child can make many of their own choices.
This morning there were so many of the kids with thick walls of green snot flowing outta their noses...and a lot of the kids start out their day eating junk food for breakfast. How can parents not know that what their child eats directly effects their ability to focus and concentrate? Of course it affects their health too, but for heavens sake the ability to learn is greatly impaired by sugar, salt and chemicals coursing through those small bodies....ARGHHH...OK thanks for letting me vent, I really needed to get that all out. Please ask the Universe to help me so that I can help this school. I know it can be done, we just need to take those first few steps, no matter how shaky, they must be taken, because Children deserve the very best start in life! We must set the example if we want them to make good choices for themselves ! Do you know most people baulk at eating healthy because they assume it is expensive. Food Quality is far more essential than food quantity. Food that nourishes a child is what will keep the child from needing to constantly eat. Any thought on this subject is very welcome :)

Margo

Junk Drawers & Closet Clean and Organized

I am now organizing my business and personal life, my house is clean, tasks are on the wall, everyone is on top of their tasks and I cleaned the last bit of clutter out of my life today with the Junk Drawers and Closet now clean and tidy....I shall rule the world...MY World :)

Pics to come :)

Margo

Moving Smoothly with the Organizing & Paw Paw Bread

Our family is now on the same page with our new way of being organized. I like it because it gives everyone a way to do what needs to be done, without being told by someone else. Makes it more like a group effort instead of a struggle. So I will be writing about this often and making note of any changes that we make with our new system.
I call it de-stressing my life and it feels Good! :)

My husband made 2 small loaves of Paw Paw Bread, I have to tell you it smelled heavenly just before coming out of the oven, but I was so full from dinner, I just didn't have room for even a taste(not to mention I am on board with Bunny Berrys 100 day raw challenge). So I just watch everyone else scarf the bread down. Then this morning my husband starts to visit the bathroom, a lot...4 times before we leave the house....So the moral of this tale is- when using native fruits, use a modest amount in your recipes or prepare for a good cleaning out of your innards :)

Margo

Organization

I have been working for several days on a way to organize my life and a system to help me become more consistent at it. Because I homeschool my children and I have plenty of projects to keep me hopping, I needed more help than what even google documents could provide. ( i know, scary huh?!) Something that would allow people in the house to see what needed to be done and would do so without me or Dietrich asking. I will explain that we are using a tool called the Mental Bank, and by doing this we are writing down in a notebook, everything that we do through out our day that we can pay ourselves for. The idea is to see positive energy flow in your life, and in turn change your life to what you would prefer. So on the wall I have different household activities and the Amount of $$ that you get to write down in your mental bank for doing it. Its pretty cool concept and I think it will be fun to see who starts making the big bucks in their mental bank account.

Too often the daily chores of life seem mundane, especially to teenagers, but this way we can see ourselves making choices to earn, instead of just being told what to do or just procrastinating in general. The way I so it is hang a sheet of vinel plasitic on the wall, I then got blank index cards and wrote on them, fold them into a sheet of plastic and then place them on the plastic wall, they hang there with no tape. So I can move them around. Its pretty easy.

I am applying this for my personal life as well as my Business. We are using this in Homeschooling as an experiment in life skills. Why not eh? If it works than we are more organized and productive than ever before, and if it doesn't than I shall move ever forward with my persistence to live my best life possible....

Thank You Universe and All Beings of Light :)

Margo

About Me

I struggle with too many interests and projects started. I am a Gemini, though its no excuse it just tells you that I take on way too much and then change my mind mid way-I like to think that I have an inner compass and I try earnestly to follow it. I also have very good intentions with my self and others...so you've heard about the Road paved with those-Yeah I'm going to Hell :)

So I have like a ton of faults, and to put it all in perspective I think a quote by the Eternal Marilyn Monroe sums me up perfectly:

This blog will be detailing my life as I achieve my personal goal of being fit by 40

My name is Margo, and I am39 years young. I will be 40 in May of 2009. I am persistent when it comes to making good choices for myself. I have a family who love and support me, but they can't help me with my own personal goals. All we can do is love one another and work as best as we can towards our goals. Most of my life I have been my own worst enemy. Sabotaging myself often.
Despite that behavior I have managed to make serious changes in my life and as a result have experienced a new quality of life especially thanks to Raw and Living Foods, as well as tools for transformation that I have gathered along the way. I feel that everyday is an opportunity to learn and evolve. Sooner or later I get important lessons learned. Along the way, often I have found that by making a mistake over and over is what it takes before it sinks in.
I am learning to be firm yet loving with myself. If I judge and treat myself harshly, it usually ends up taking me far longer to learn my lesson and move forward.

I feel that being completely honest is important. Not everyone is willing to do that. People generally do not like to be seen in a bad light, but I realized that no matter what I do or don't do, I am the one who has to live my life and I can't help what other people think or feel about me. Your either going to like me or not. So if you are inclined to read what I write, I thank you.
I am doing this for myself, and documenting it for whoever may understand, benefit or just accept it for what it is. The story of my life right now and my deep determination to be fit by the time I turn 40. I owe it to myself to be the best I can be inside and out.


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Margo